I seem to hav elost count of how many days now. I went back to my (paper and pen) journal and the last day I mentioned having a smoke was July 10th. So I guess that would make today 16 days. And let me tell you, it has been 16 days that have been both a blessing that I quit and a curse that I quit. Ever try to move your whole house in one day (I tend to be a procrastinator) and then when you go to get the UHaul there is no money on your Visa? That was last Monday...the 10th I think. There was no money on my Visa, so I go to hand them cash and they can't accept it "cuz it now wants a Visa card". At this point in the day I was so frustrated and angry. My man had a little breakdown that morning and wanted his space. So I was upset about that to start with. Then the whole UHaul mess. GRRR!! I grabbed a drink at the store and soooo wanted to tell them to throw in a pack of Marlboro Menthols!! But I fought it off. I managed to get through that whole day without a smoke. I was up until 1AM still moving stuff. The next day I got the last load. Now, I just gotta go through it all so my mom can find her garage!!lol
I finally got a night off last night. My BFF Missy took my kids for the night. God it was such a blessing. I needed it so badly. Because of my back I have pretty severe bouts with depression. Add not smoking, and my nerves were simply non-existent the last couple of days. In comes Missy to save my kids...lol So me and Ralph decided since the kids were gone, we would be too. Plus, I'm not allowed to stay at his house, my mom won't let him stay here. We got a room. We were gonna get a cabin for the night, but that didn't work out. (Ralph never needs his space for too long!!) I turned my cell phone off right after my kids called to tell me good night. Nobody but Missy knew where we were. It was so freaking nice!! Ralph broke his ankle a little more than a week ago, so I was playing nurse and gave him a sponge bath. In turn he ran me a bath with bubbles while I ran to get us some grub and drinks. He so sweet! I just wish he let that side show more often. But anyways... Ralph is a smoker. I managed to make it through the whole night without even desiring a smoke. If I'd have quit cold turkey I could promise you that I would have had a smoke last night. Chantix is really making this a lot easier on me. After seeing how strong I am, I'm pretty sure Ralph is going to take the Chantix road too. One more non-smoker. One less person supporting the mutli billion dollar tobacco industry!
I've noticed that my sense of smell and taste is coming back. It's so nice to eat something and *really* enjoy it for the taste!! I live in a pretty rural area and it's nice to smell the fresh air. The rain is such a sweet smell now. I always have loved the smell of fresh rain....but I had forgotten how good it really does smell. AH...I'm tasting and smelling life again!! :)
There's one side affect that has hit me the last week, and it is pretty bothersome. I have dry mouth. Sometimes my tongue will stick to the roof of my mouth. UCK!! So I went to the local Wal Mart and stocked up on some Jolly Ranchers and Life Savers. You know, when I was a kid life savers came in 5 flavors...cherry, pineapple, apple, lemon and orange. Now the have mango tangerine, grape, pina colada, and a few more that I can't remember the name of. Gee, how things have changed...lol
In leaving today, I hope that all of you fellow Chantix users have a good and smoke free day. And for those of you who used Chantix to get through the first few weeks but have now quit taking it...I also wish you a smoke free day.
Another day down....